My name is Renée, and I live on Vancouver Island, BC, with my husband and two teenagers. Like so many women, I’ve found myself in a long-term struggle with my weight and self-esteem. Ever since having children 17 years ago, I’ve been setting unrealistic goals and deadlines that come and go and never amount to anything except to make me feel worse. If I’m going to make any progress, I have to admit the following:

  • I defeat myself when I compare myself to others – even if it’s an imaginary better version of myself.
  • I defeat myself when I start thinking obsessively in terms of pounds and sizes.
  • I defeat myself when I treat myself like someone who needs a kick in the ass, or a smack upside the head to smarten myself up.

I wouldn’t treat someone that I love in that manner.

I’m recording the changes that I’m making, step-by-step, in order to meet my goal in the next year: Weigh 160 pounds with great muscle tone, take up running regularly, participate in the Times Colonist 10K and the CIBC Run For the Cure.

On an emotional/mental level, I’m also aiming to treat my Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Clinical Depression, and OCD, all of which I was diagnosed with in 2002.  It has’t been easy for my family and friends.  I want to show my two kids that I can do this, for me, and for them, too. I see others achieving this through fitness, and in particular, running, so this will be my main focus going into 2012.

Whatever the method, I’m seeking to create a simple, kind, and permanent lifestyle that leads me to health, well-being, and a sense of being comfortable in my own skin.  Maybe I’ll even exceed my own expectations. I’m open to that.

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